A Good Little Girls Zine

No Thank You, I Don’t, Won’t Get IVF, But…

I may not have the stretch marks, well actually I do, but not on my stomach.

I may not have the C-section scar from hip to hip. Mine’s a tiny laparscopic scar.

I may not have sleepless nights, well actually I do, but not caused by a crying baby.

I do, however,

Have eighty-four little ones who need my face, my voice, my validation to feel confident in their abilities.

I do have hours upon hours of work to ensure these little ones are growing into positive, confident, kind people.

I have guilt, somedays, overwhelming guilt of not being there, physically to guide, love, push, even when I’m ill, severely ill.

I do have emails upon emails of students who miss me, need my reassurance.

I may not own a car seat or a stroller, but that codependency of them needing me and me needing them to feel fully supported everyday is there. Always there. Good or bad, it is there.

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Sonia Chintha

Sonia Chintha is an Indian American writer who lives in the Washington DC area. She blogs, writes poetry, and fiction. She is also an English teacher who believes that our experiences teach us more than any test. She is the founder and co-editor of Good Little Girls.

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