A Good Little Girls Zine

Breathe, I tell myself: in, out, in out.
But it doesn’t work.
My jaw tightens and I scream…

on the inside.

It’s been years in the making, two and half to be exact.

April 2014.

I spin around forcing my body to shake it off:
the frustration,
the jealousy,
dark thoughts 

of inadequacy.

But it sticks to me:
a gooey,
stretchy film
of
disappointment

awakening at the sight of–

at the sound of–

Just grin and bare it,
I tell myself.

So I fain excitement;
act as if I am
and
maybe
I
will
be.

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Sonia Chintha

Sonia Chintha is an Indian American writer who lives in the Washington DC area. She blogs, writes poetry, and fiction. She is also an English teacher who believes that our experiences teach us more than any test. She is the founder and co-editor of Good Little Girls.

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