Tightened jaw
I panic
trying to release it, them, you
I unhook my bra
searching for a moment of that freedom
Tightened jaw
I panic
I close my eyes and breathe
I hit play to that playlist,
the one that heals
hoping for a moment of kindness
Tightened jaw
I panic
find a comfortable position
close your eyes
meditate
breathe
stop thinking
stop comparing
stop punishing
Tightened jaw
I panic
tilting my head back
breathing steady
I try
to
get
it
them
you
out
of
mind.
Yet you remain
your roots thrive
growing faster with each breath
traveling into the cells of my bones.
Tightened Jaw
I panic
believing that you will never release my mind, my body, my soul
to live free, light, sweet.
